Part of that concern is for her - How will she do? Will she make friends? What if she gets made fun of? What will her peers teach her of "non-academic" things? Will her teacher find ways to challenge her? Will she miss me....?
The other part of that concern has to do with me. I'll admit it. I am selfish. I like to have my children here. I like to be able to go to the park whenever we want. I like to spend our days dancing to music, doing our chores, baking cookies, and going on adventures. I'm NOT looking forward to shuttling to Kindergarten. Especially since Ireland is in morning preschool & McKinley is in afternoon Kindergarten. I miss the simple, sweet mornings when McKinley was small. I'm putting together the slideshow for my grandpa's funeral & found some pics & videos from when McKinley was a baby. Oh... those wonderful mornings. Just me & her. Just time to enjoy each other & learn together.
So - you may be wondering why we didn't just home school this year like we did last year. Well, I guess after many discussions & prayer, we decided that McKinley deserved to try out regular school & see how she likes it & see how she does. And she really wanted to go to public school. She was so excited for school to start - she put together a chain & took one ring off every day.
So - that's where we're at. Don't let the picture fool you. I started crying the night before when she got her blessing. I peeked up to see my big girl sitting there, head bowed, eyes closed. So grown up. And after I dropped her off, I tried to be brave in front of my 2 little ones, but the truth is that I am a wreck! I know she's beyond ready for school, but am I?
What will I do now that I can't hug & kiss my girl anytime I please? Someone please tell me it's all going to be okay? :)