I'm not going to elaborate too much, but here are some of the facts:
- We got notice a few weeks ago that the owners of the twin home we are renting are in default & we're not sure how much longer we'll be able to stay here before the bank kicks us out.
- Our lots in Enoch don't look like they're going to work out. Again, if you want the long answer, you can talk to me, but we are planning on putting them on the market... and coming up with a "plan b" for housing.
- They're talking changes with Jason's job. Not sure exactly what this means for us - or when - but just another "what if" to add to the mix.
- Lots of sickness in our home the past month. From ear infections to respiratory issues (Kezia had to use the nebulizer for a week or so) to sore throats, it seems like we have round after round of something or other.
There's also been a heartache of another kind that I'm not going to elaborate here, but let's just say that I've been on my knees a lot lately. I think I'm finally past the "why me?" stage - and I'm moving on to the "what am I supposed to learn from this experience?" stage. Still... it's hard - and I haven't come up with a lot of answers -- although - I DO know that most of my trials seem to try to teach me humility, trust that the Lord really does know what's best for me and my family, and patience. I apparently have a REALLY thick head - and heart - and I have to CONSTANTLY re-learn things.
One thing I am SURE of, though, is that I am loved. That God doesn't give us these things to make our lives harder. He gives them to us to make us stronger - and to learn what He has to teach us. Whenever I feel lost and I'm heading into a downward spiral, I try & remember that the Lord has never forsaken me or my family. And I know He never will.
Please pray for us. I know it will all work out. It always does & I'm trying to keep in my mind & heart the saying "Your future is as bright as your faith!!" by President Monson.